There's a Ginger Rogers quote, it's something like "I don't see why everyone makes a big deal out of Fred Astair's dancing. I did everything he did, but backwards and in heels". I'm sure you know it.
Anyway, you went through all of these experiences that would have been traumatic and damaging under any circumstances, while you were post partum and caring for a small baby. You did it backwards and in heels. Of course you didn't notice.